walk

i will wait for your timing in all things. i will wait for your direction and with every step keep my ear atuned to you and your voice. help me to trust you and that you truly have a good future for me. that you are with me every step and you will tell me, “Whether […]

from here

i have no clue where to go from here. i don’t even know where to place my foot in the next step. but i know that cutting out the distraction is what you’ve asked me to do and in doing so, i have taken a step in faith that you, God, will light my path […]

too much

could my feelings for you be real or just transference; a case of greener grass syndrome. merely a way to distract myself as i deal with so much currently. i’m not saying i’m in love but i feel something that i never thought i’d feel again. something i haven’t felt since drass. a hope and […]

covenant

when we got married, i was in it forever. regardless of feelings, i was going to love you and fight for us. it never dawned on me that you would fail to show up. so if you don’t engage in your role and responsibility what does that do to our covenant. which makes me wonder, […]

now what?

i have been racking my brain trying to think about what it is that i want. to try and figure out where my head and heart really are with all of this. today is one week since i packed a couple of bags and walked out the door. i have not started missing him yet. […]